With over 20 years of military service and numerous combat tours, I have witnessed courageous acts countless times. Courage is the ability to act regardless of the feelings or potential consequences. Courage is following your intuition when the facts are against it. The thing to remember is courage is not only done by military personnel in a combat zone but is done every day by ordinary folks doing extraordinary things.
This past weekend at the Dothan Criterium (crit), we all witnessed a very courageous performance by one of our teammates. Michele has been really struggling with feeling comfortable in the peloton racing at high speeds, especially in races with tight corners and down hills. Well, the Dothan crit had both. It was a 0.7 mile 4 corner crit with the last 2 of the 4 corners being downhill and fast. To make matters even worse, as Michele and I were sitting on corner number 4 eating Moe’s and watching the Category 4 race there was a huge pile up with one guy being transported to the hospital. (side note: he is ok!) This sent Michele’s fear sky rocketing.
So, as the hours passed and her race time got closer she was getting even more nervous about racing. About an hour before her event, she started warming-up and I could tell there was something really bothering her. She was distant and not really focused on warming-up. Her thoughts were elsewhere. As a good friend and someone who has been to all of her races, I have never witnessed her in this state. All I could muster up to tell her as she warmed-up and debated on racing is that “if she wants to leave then we will!”….She has never not started a race and I only know of one time that she dropped out of a race and that was because of asthma. She has stayed in races and finished by herself numerous times because she refuses to quit.
After a half hearted warm-up, she headed to the line to race. This was the first step in facing her fear. The officials and promoter did the typical pre-race announcements and rules and they were off. The women’s Pro 1, 2 race was an hour long event and on the first lap Michele was falling off the back of the peloton because she was cautiously going through every turn. The good thing is Michele was strong enough to get back on the back of the peloton on the straight-aways and up hills. This lasted for the first 20 minutes of the race. Eventually Michele went to the front and pulled the group for a few laps and you could tell there was a change in her. They were through about half of the race when this happened, and then Debbie Milne lapped the field. After a couple of laps being in the field Debbie went up the road again. Michele, realizing something needed to be done, attacked the field after turn 4 going through the start/finish and joined Debbie. The two of them quickly started to work together and built up a huge gap on the field. In the end Debbie rolled in 1st and Michele took 2nd.
Michele’s courage did not come through her ability to take on the whole field but came from facing her fears. She has been struggling with the fear of crashing since she crashed at Master’s Nationals last year. This fear has been hindering her abilities and results. It had gotten so bad on Saturday that it almost prevented her from racing. Regardless of the amount of fear she had eating away at her, she went to the start line and performed. Her courage came out again by not only facing her demon but out witting it and the peloton and finishing 2nd in a very tough long crit. Please do not get me wrong, Michele is not over this fear and she probably never will be. Having a fear of crashing as a bike racer is a healthy fear to have. The level of fear she has for crashing at this time is too high, but this past weekend she made some big strides in knocking it down to a lower level. Please do some self reflecting and if you have a fear reach down and grab hold and face that fear. Do not let that fear control you! Take control of that fear and face it. This is courage and being courageous is the act of courage….” ordinary person doing an extraordinary thing!”